I don’t know what I thought turning 25 would feel like. Honestly, today I feel kind of speechless. Grateful, loved, blessed, and speechless.
My life isn’t perfect by any stretch of the imagination. Yes, I’ve worked hard for the degrees I’ve earned, the jobs I have, and the places I’ve been, but those things aren’t all there is to life. Life has left me with scars and bruises just like everyone else in the world.
A lot of things have happened in the last 365 days. I’ve let go of some old things and bad habits that I thought I couldn’t exist without. I’ve been blessed enough to be in the presence of people with the most beautiful souls. I’ve laughed and loved, cried and hurt, prayed and healed. I’ve finally come to understand that people will treat you how you’ve taught them to treat you and that you only accept the things you believe you deserve. I’ve gathered the courage to look my brokenness in the eyes and decide to do something about it. I’ve opened myself up to new experiences and new people that I didn’t think my heart would be able to handle.
My life isn’t perfect, but its full of love. And for that I am grateful beyond words. To know that there are people in my life who love me unconditionally, despite the mistakes I’ve made and my embarrassing moments, is something that no amount of money can buy. My tribe, my inner circle… they’re absolutely incredible and I don’t know where I’d be without them.
Thank you for journeying with me through my ups and downs, hills and valleys, and everything in between. I can’t say that I’ve loved every minute of my life so far, but I can definitely say that I’m willing to learn from it, and I still have a long way to go.
No matter how put together we may look on the outside we will never be able to have true, lasting relationships with ourselves or others until we are willing to bring everything we have to the table. Our strengths and weaknesses, our emotional baggage and triumphs are a part of who we are. Ignoring our flaws doesn’t make them go away. It just gives them power over us. I don’t know about you, but I want my power back.
I hope that you’ll continue to join me on this journey of vulnerability and hope. May we find the strength to embrace our authentic selves. May we live consciously, love extravagantly, and breathe deeply. And may our next 365 days be even more glorious than the last.
Love & light,
Felecia Shanice ❤