Today is my 23rd birthday. 23 years I’ve been on this planet and I have a whole lot of memories behind me to show for it. I have more blessings in my life than I could ever have asked for and amazing people in my life that I just don’t deserve. I am eternally grateful. I don’t know how I got here. I feel like every time I blink another week goes by, another month, another year. It’s like life’s been passing me by while I sit on the sidelines.
At what point do I choose to stop letting life pass me by and actually live the life I want to live? I know I’m not the same person I was just a few years ago, but I know that I still have a whole lot of growing left to do. I still have some of the same bad habits, same struggles, same insecurities… I keep saying “I’ll change that one day”, “I’ll do it eventually”, “maybe at some point”… But why not start today?
Today’s also the 1 year anniversary of Unafraid2Dream. The point was to step out on faith and do something I’ve never done before in a brand new city making brand new memories, but I’ve held back. Too afraid to dig deeper and take some risks. (Oh the irony…)
What good are the words I use if I don’t live by them? If tomorrow isn’t guaranteed why do I, why do we, keep putting off all the things we want to do with our life?
And even as much as I’ve wanted to be brave and step out the truth is no one changes their behavior until they change their mindset. We are not the sum of our Instagram pictures, witty tweets and Facebook posts. Truth is we’re all carrying our own baggage, broken hearts, secrets and damaged souls.
Even so, there is an amazing beauty to our brokenness. We are wounded but we each have a purpose in life that is so much bigger than we can ever imagine.
Admitting imperfection takes strength and courage. And while I’m not there yet, I can promise to try. Life isn’t easy. I would love to say I have it all together and I can walk into this 23rd year knowing what I’m doing, but that would be a lie. From here forward I promise to be transparent. Its time to stop pretending, take off the mask and have some honest conversations. Living unafraid is not something you simply do. It’s a way of life you have to choose each day. It’s something that has to be learned.
So my dear friend, can we promise to learn to be unafraid? Give yourself the grace to admit you don’t have it all together and that its OK. Actually, its more than OK because we’re not meant to be perfect and we never will be. Its a lot less pressure when you stop striving for an impossible standard and simply choose to be you.
So here’s to another year of living, loving and learning. Here’s to a new start and some fresh perspective. Let’s embody what this word is supposed to mean. Let’s become Unafraid.